Yes, it’s that late/early. And I’m still up. Only a few sips into my tea… And as I wait for my mind and body to calm down after an … interesting evening, I figured I’d blog. Why not? 😉
So…I’m discovering the Beatles. Yeah, little late, huh? Tell me about it. But, a few months ago, I saw Across the Universe, and then saw it recently with a group of friends. And I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. So I downloaded the soundtrack. And have been playing it ever since. Not all of it, mind you. Mainly a few songs. Classics: Let it be, All you need is love, etc. But also a few I’d never heard before. My current favorite is Blackbird. And…after listening to the original Beatles version, I like Across the Universe’s version better. I think it’s the girl’s voice. It’s haunting at times. Especially this song.
I don’t know what it is. Actually…I do. Because I’ve been there. Watching people struggle with something you cannot help them with. Desperately desiring them to flourish, to find their potential and live up to it…to fly. To Live.
The other song I’m listening to a lot? Sung by the same girl, actually: If I Fell. To be honest, it seem to encapsulate a lot of what I feel about becoming Orthodox. …somehow. Don’t ask me how. ‘Cause it’s just kinda there, simmering under the surface. And I’m too tired to try to fish it out.
I do believe it’s about time to find out if I can sleep. …even if it’s just a few hours. Booo weekends. I need to figure out which job I’m dropping. Pray for me. I hate making decisions.